Sunday, November 30, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
When I was exploring Blogspot features, I found out they now provide a new "gadget" - "Follower". According to Blogspot, "the "Followers" widget is a great tool to help you grow your blog's audience. Readers often visit a blog and enjoy it but fail to return. With the followers widget you can get all readers to return and become a fan".
Mummy thought, COOL, why not we try out this new tool. Mummy put the "Follower" gadget (FOLLOWERS OF HAO RE'S BLOG) at the top of the sidebar, i.e., right below the "I AM A HAPPY BABY" panel.
Wait no more! Calling for aunties, uncles, sisters, brothers, big friends, little friends, or even if I don't know you personally....... if you wish to keep on reading/knowing Hao Re's stories, be a "follower"! Your REWARDS will be - a big kiss and big hug from Hao Re when you meet up with him, sounds good?
Thank you for your support!!!
(NOTE: I suppose you need to create a blogspot account before you can become a follower? I am not sure. Leave it to you to try out!)
Monday, November 24, 2008
He likes to get on his 2 feet now..... and he still crawls
He is walking more and more stably...... but he still falls
And, he is taking more and more steps at one go.
Hope we can capture a better video clip to show. This is what we managed to get so far, yesterday night at home, Hao Re can now walk pretty stably (for his standard) for >10 steps now. Should really start shopping for a good pair of shoes for Hao Re, so that he can start to walk when we bring him out, rather than carry him, carrying a >10kg baby for long time is really no joke! Meanwhile, our happy baby continues exploring his surrounding!
Friday, November 21, 2008
We knew Hao Re is well already since Tueday, as he has gone back to the full appetite, if not more, remains very active, and no blisters observed on his body. But since this is not a common flu, but the more nasty HFMD, we need to get the confirmation from Dr Keoy that Hao Re is all well and able to go the "school" again.
We brought Hao Re to TMC to visit Dr Keoy today at 2.30pm. Yes, as what we expected, it's all cleared!!! Dr Keoy said it usually takes about 5 days to clear a HFMD. But because Hao Re got a HFMD variant, which was a much milder version, so it's not impossible for Hao Re to clear the virus in 2 days. Lucky Hao Re! And Dr Keoy was so kind, he didn't charge us consultation fees! How nice that was, especially that he was not the one who supposed to do the review for Hao Re, and it took him about 5 minutes of his times, he has all the right to charge. As I mentioned before, I do really trust that Dr Keoy is genuinely caring for the kids, and not just for money.
Before seeing Dr Keoy, we brought Hao Re to the Quest Lab at level 4, TMC, to do a blood test, checking his HepB antibody level, which would be needed before his next HepB jab. Wah, I was totally pissed with the lab tech who took blood from Hao Re. She was like no feeling, she didn't even look at Hao Re, to her, Hao Re is just a "sample" for her to poke to get blood, and so her job considered done. She squeezed Hao Re's finger so forcefully, Hao Re cried so hard, so didn't bother at all. After that, she told me have to press on Hao Re's finger for 5 minutes, if not it might bleed. I was busy comforting Hao Re. She saw I didn't press Hao Re finger, she said it again. I was already so angry, ended up I shouted at her - OKAY, OKAY, can I stop him crying first! I know it's difficult to get blood from baby, but only if she could have been kinder, gentler, then maybe there would be lesser crying (hard) babies!
I think the fact that Hao Re was able to recover so soon is due to a few reasons:
1) He was surprisingly so cooperative when it's time for the viral medicine (ZOVIRAX). It's either he was okay with the taste, or it's only 1 medicine to take, or he likes to be spoon-fed. Whatever it is, it really helped that he took the medicine on time.
2) He slept very well during the day and night. I strongly believe that good sleep can boost up the immune system.
3) He has already built up a very strong immune system to fight the pathogens over the past 10 months.
4) He can feel to love and care from dada, mama, PoPo, GongGong, and Jiu-Jiu, and I think this might have made him wanted to recover faster?
I have been at home for 1 week. On Monday, I thought it's going to be a tough week, as he was still ill and cranky on Monday morning. But on Monday night, I knew that it's going to be the opposite, I knew I would have a good week to bond with Hao Re. Of course, I am very grateful that my mum is around, who helps me to take care of Hao Re, to cook delicious breakfast, lunch and dinner, and to simply accompany me at home, it's really great, thanks, mum!
Now both Hao Re and I have recharged our battery, we will be falling back to our daily routine at work and at "school" next week. Daddy, we will join you again from Monday onwards!
Some photos of Hao Re taken this week:
My happy angel..... pretty easy to capture a bright smile of his face.
Mummy, don't disturb me, please, I am reading, seriously.
Totally engaged on the TV, favourites being the animals and cartoons.
|From The growing up story of Hao Re ~甘皓日~|
Monday, November 17, 2008
After I came back until Saturday morning, there was no sign of Hao Re being unwell. He played and drank/ate and slept as usual. We even went out on Saturday morning, to get something that has been long dragged done.
Things started to get a bit unusual when he refused his afternoon milk and got a bit cranky. But in the morning, he finished his usual 240ml milk very quick and while we were in the mall, he was all active and happy, walked/cruised a lot showing off his walking skill. On the way home, we felt that he has established fever. True enough, when we measured him as soon as we reached home, he was at 38.3C already. Gave him 1 dose of Neurofen, which was supposed to help for high fever (>38.5C). But it didn't work. Hao Re fever once reached 39.7C as the highest. We started to get nervous. So I made a call to TMC, the reception referred me to the 24hr Family Clinic. The nurse I talked to was very helpful. She advised me to try Parecetamol instead and sponged Hao Re for 10-20 minutes. After taking 1 dose of paracetampl, Hao Re's fever has subsided, and was at <37.5c>38.5C again. And started to refuse milk more. So we delayed no more. Brought him to the peadiatrician clinic at TMC to see Dr Ang Ai Tin (Dr Keoy's colleague). Hao Re was diagnosed with Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease (HFMD), unfortunately.
(Side note: we still think Dr Keoy is the best PD. This Dr Ang is a bit, errr, rude, as she raised her voice to me once. When she was trying to show me the ulcers at Hao Re's throat, I didn't know she meant for me to see, so I didn't react. She shouted, "Come here, I want to show you!". I was so pissed, but for the sake of Hao Re, it's okay, as long Hao Re is well take care of. See, Dr Keoy will never do this, he is ever so kind, when he talks, he didn't talk to parents, he talks kindly to the baby, as if asking for his permission to do something. Dr Keoy is definitely my choice).
So got some medicine and Dr Ang warned that can't send Hao Re to Infant Care until he is clear of the virus. She asked us to bring Hao Re back for review on Saturday. But I will surely go back to Dr Keoy. No doubt :-)
When we reached home, it was the worst time. Hao Re refused to drink milk and water, and got very cranky, as the fever is still on. Think those ulcers and fever making him very uncomfortable. Luckily after his afternoon nap, when he woke up at about 5pm, he got better. Especially that he was willing to drink a lot of water, that's a big relief!!! And fever started to drop. By evening, fever is totally gone, and Hao Re has gone back to his normal "activeness" once again! He played until 11pm, until he was totally exhausted!
Today, hubby to took 1 day off to help out at home, just in case Hao Re might got cranky again today. I went back to work for 0.5 day, to clear last week back-log, and to inform colleagues for my continuous absent for another week. Then went to the Infant care to inform the teachers. Apparently, one of Hao Re's classmates was having throat ulcer since last Thursday, but her GP didn't diagnosed her as HFMD. And Hao Re got bitten by a classmate on Thursday. Made me feel very convinced that it was the little girl who spread the virus to Hao Re. Not to blame her nor her mum or anything. But it's good to find out the "source" so that it's safer for other babies/infants/toddlers.
Went home to see a super, if not hyper, active baby! Since I reached home at 1pm, he didn't nap at all until 9.30pm!!! Even after 2 dose of viral medicine, and 1 dose of paracetamol! He just wanted to play, play and play. All adults took turns to take nap and to entertain Hao Re. Think adults were more tired than Hao Re was. My mum said she has never seen a sick baby like this! She joked that maybe the doctor has given wrong medicine that made him so active! Hao Re took puree pretty all right, though smaller amount. And the last milk feed at 9pm, he managed to finish 150ml! And he continued to drink a lot of water constantly throughout the day. Except for his decreased milk/food intake, Hao Re is nothing different than the normal him. After a long day, finally hubby managed to coaxed him to sleep at 9.30pm (good work, again, hubby!!!)
Hubby went to bed already, since he has to work tomorrow, and think he was tired after caring Hao Re for 1 day, think more tiring than work :-) I will soon to go my la la land, after I finish this blog entry.
Thanks to my mum who is around to help out, fortunately. And big thanks to hubby also, being such a nice daddy and hubby :-)
A real speedy recovery, Hao Re. You are a happy and healthy boy, as what Baba and Mama wish you are!!!
One great thing that hubby managed to "achieve" is that he helped Hao Re to totally wean off his mid-night feed!!!!! Can you understand how happy I am?????
Hubby did this by letting Hao Re co-slept with him when I was not around. When Hao Re made noise or woke up at night, hubby just patted him and comforted him, and Hao Re fell asleep without asking for milk, and that happened for a straight 5 days, and continued even when I am back! I did this before, but some nights he stillwanted to drink milk. See, how different it is when a dad or a mum cares for a baby, baby knows exactlywho to bully with!
Now, I have a much better night sleep. Thank you so much, hubby! Big kiss for you!
Next step is to slowly put Hao Re back to his cot, and hope he will forget his night milk feed from now on! Thank you to you also, Hao Re, being so cooperative!
Friday, November 14, 2008
09 Nov 2008 10.30pm
I am now sitting at the E04 Waiting Room at Terminal 2, Changi Airport, waiting to board the LH779 Lufthansa Flight to Munich, Germany. This is the first time I travel for work, after we have Hao Re, and I will be there for 5 days, arriving home on Friday evening. It’s a not an easy decision to make, especially that this is for attending a conference, and not those must-go type of travel. I eventually decided to travel alone as I really need to learn something to prepare myself better for the job. Initial plan was to have hubby and Hao Re travelled together, so we could make it a work & personal holiday. Well, we have the raising fuel price to blame, the air ticket price has gone up dramatically, close to double, since we travelled to England last September. So we dropped the idea.
So, here I am, all alone. I am not going to have fun, probably a bit of sightseeing, a quick browsing through of the city, and that is it, really. I will be spending most of the time at the conference, and even at night, will be staying in the hotel, going through Hao Re’s past 10 months photos and videos, and try to do some slide shows or something.
Dear hubby and Hao Re, I am missing you already!
10 Nov 2008 6.30am (Germany time)
Touched down just before 6am (Germany time), which was about 1pm in Singapore. Slept throughout the flight, though couldn’t sleep soundly (never hoped to sleep well during the flight anyway). First time flying with Lufthansa, and the experience was…… er….well, let’s put it this way – no personal in-flight entertainment set, only a few very small tv scattered around, only broadcasted 2 movies throughout the entire flight. I didn’t even bother to open up the ear-piece. Good thing was since there was nothing much to do, everyone just slept, so it’s the quietest flight I have ever been on. Food, okay; and service, fair. No wonder so much good feedback on the Asian airlines, like MAS, SIA, Cathay, the services from these airlines are excellent, comparably. Wonder how much different of air ticket prices, say between SIA and Lufthansa?
Arriving at Frankfurt Airport, without having a high hope. True enough, it’s a pretty old airport and not a great airport, I have to say. I have to walk for about 30 minutes for my connection flight to Munich, and there was no cart provided. Luckily I listened to hubby to check in my only 1 piece of very light luggage, otherwise would be pretty challenging for me to drag my luggage for such a long journey.
The “best” experience was going through their checking…… Our Malaysian passport has since long ago integrated magnetic strip for the automated and faster clearance. This lady who was checking me was so excited when she scanned me and my passport gave out a loud peep! She quickly took away my passport and told me, “SIT HERE, DON’T MOVE!” Then she put my passport and put it through the checking belt, of course it’s nothing! She was still not satisfied and trying to press and examine every page of my passport, almost wanted to peel off the front and back pages trying to see if there was anything hidden inside. Finally I got the all clear, and she said, “Thank you, have a good flight!”. I was tired and so didn’t even bother to explain to her it’s because of the magnetic strip, and I just let her do whatever she wanted to do, found it a bit amusing though J Oh, I haven’t said that when she was scanning me using the scanner, the literary touched every inch on me (with my clothes on), very close on touching my privy when she scanned my tight….., my hair, my feet…, gosh, did I really look so dangerous to her? Well, supposedly she is just trying to follow all the SOPs strictly…… But then there should be many Malaysians travelling to Frankfurt, right? Shouldn’t they know what to expect from a Malaysian passport? Whatever it is. It’s over, and I just took it as a funny experience to remember of.
SMSed hubby when I touched down. He said Hao Re behaved very well yesterday night and this morning. Didn’t cry for mummy at all (I thought Hao Re is very sticky to me, apparently NOT!!!). Hubby gave him milk and he fell asleep right after his milk at 9+pm. Then only woke at 2am, hubby comforted Hao Re by carrying him and let Hao Re slept with him on our bed. Then Hao Re slept through the night, without asking for milk at all! Made me wonders, is it because Hao Re likes to bully me? Or he knows mummy is not around so he better be a good boy? Or he knows daddy meets his demands differently from mummy? Whatever it is, Hao Re is a good boy. I can now be more relax and not worrying about Hao Re so much, though I do miss them dearly……
Hubby, do enjoy this very special week of yours – a great week for daddy and son bonding J
12th Nov 2008 6pm (Germany time)
Didn’t have free internet access in the hotel room, so didn’t access internet for 3 days already, felt like I was very out dated…..
Managed to call hubby every night, to talk to him for a few minutes, and that really help a lot, for me to have some comfort talking to hubby and to find out how’s Hao Re for that day. Don’t think Hao Re realise that mummy is not at home, he probably wonders why baba is putting him to bed and not mummy, and why Popo is feeding him and not mummy. Don’t think he misses me. I am waiting to be home on Friday evening and to see what his reaction is when he sees me – cry, laugh, give me a hug, or look at me like a stranger? Really interesting to study a baby behavior.
I enjoy the conference a lot, learned a lot of things (meaning more work to do when I get back L), and it provides a very good networking platform, as it’s a relatively small conference. I feel good, as I can now know I won’t not go home empty-handed, considering the “scarification” that I made (leaving Hao Re and hubby at home).
Only managed to see the city of Munich for a quick 2 hours or so. It’s a very typical European city. Since I was alone, I was actually not too keen to see things in detail, I was really just have a quick browsing of the city. Not too impressive though, not as pretty as I have thought. Probably have to go out to the countryside to appreciate their landscape. Lots and lots of shopping, especially those famous labels, again, not my interest. As usual, took some pictures, and that ended my adventure in Munich!
Just one more day, I will be on way home!
Really feel like hugging and kissing Hao Re now…………..
13th Nov 2008, 11pm (Germany time)
Finally, I am on the way home! Now on the plane, LH778 2210hr flight from Frankfurt to Singapore, should reach Singapore by 5pm. Done some shopping at a local supermarket before going to airport as I figured this is probably a better way to know what the local consumed rather than getting those standard stuff from the Tax Free shop in the airport. Eventually bought some chocolate as usual, and some snack for the folks at
home, for colleagues and for Hao Re’s teachers, quite a handful :-)
On the way to airport, only then I realized that I still haven’t got anything for Hao Re yet. Luckily I was with one of the delegates of the conference, she is from the Brussels, and she told me there is a toy shop at the airport, and the toy from the traditional German brand, HABA, who is well known for its nice beech wood toy, is worth buying. And so I did, got a set of blocks of the animal theme. And finally it’s hubby turn. Got him a Germany produced ice-wine, hope it’s good. All done! Ops, except nothing for myself, typical mummy, haha!
Will see hubby and Hao Re is about 12 hours time. And I am looking forward to a great weekend!
14th Nov 2008 10.10pm (Singapore time)
I AM HOME!!!! Decided to pick Hao Re from the Infant Care on my way back from the airport at about 6.30pm. When he saw me, he hug me tightly, and put his head softly on my shoulder, so warming! But he didn't call me Mama, which I did't expect really. After reaching home, he just ate and played like usual. He seems to be more grown up now, to me, having not seen him for 5 days. And he is mastering his walking skill, while cruising is still his main way of getting around. Hubby came home at about 8pm, then Hao Re cried for milk at about 9pm, and hubby managed to put him to bed, despite that I was around the house.
So good to be home!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Hao Re is able to walk now, although he is able to walk for only <10>All this happened on Friday evening, when we were back from dinner. He walked towards me while putting on a very sweet smile on his face. When he reached into my hug, he turned and looked at me with an innocent look with his beautiful smile and eyes, and that made my day!
He later walked a few more times, and continued to do that today. Having said so, when he wants to move to get something fast, he still crawls as he is still better at crawling. Whenever he managed to perform some walkings, we would clap and he returned us with a smile/laugh and got more motivated.
I am so thrilled to see this happened! Reason being I will be travelling for work tomorrow for 5 days, I thought I would miss this very important milestone of Hao Re, but I didn't, I got to see it happened!I initially thought he would start walking earlier, before he reached 9 months (see my previous entry - http://babyhaore.blogspot.com/2008/09/very-very-close-to-walking.html#links). What I learned was Hao Re is the one to decide when he wants to walk. We as parents, can provide him the right environment and give him more encouragement, but really we can't rush it, and only Hao Re himself knows what it the right time to walk, whenever he is ready. For Hao Re, it took him 1.5 months since he started cruising and standing up freely to master the walking skill, and some other babies may take shorter or longer period.
Some dates to mark down Hao Re's moving-around "history"
4 months - Rolling over back to front, front to back
5 months - Sitting without support
6 months - Creeping (moving by dragging whole body on the floor)
7 months - Pulling himself to stand
7 months 1 week - Crawling (on all fours)
7 months 2 weeks - Cruising
8 months 2+ weeks - Standing freely
10 months 3 days - Walking
And more excitement is lining ahead for Hao Re, Mama and Baba, can't wait for that to happen!!!
Friday, November 7, 2008
Just a quick update.
Since a couple of days ago (oh, that means when Hao Re was 10 months and 1 day old), he suddenly surprised us by letting go his hands and standing very stably for a few minutes. He could already stand unassistedly since he was 8+ months, but during those "old days", he only managed to do it for <1 minute. I think now he can stand even longer, only because when he tried to move, then he would fall down on his buttock. But then I guess, it's pretty boring for him to just stand there and not moving :-) What makes me put on a smile is that every time when he shows off this new skill of his, he would put on a very cute + handsome + evil + playful + victory kinda face and turns his face to look at everyone of us, like trying to say "look, I can stand!" Hao Re is really such a lovely boy!
Talking about moving (= walking), yes, he can do a few steps now, and I think he is very eagle to start walking. But then, it's still pretty wobbly. He still hasn't get the hang of balancing yet. Once he gets the balance, he would start walking. He has very strong muscle, but......... he also has a big belly :-)......... could it be that those fat piled up on his stomach making him difficult to balance, haha!
Hao Re, jia-you! Mama and Baba are waiting for the day you can walk stably, so that we can bring you to enjoy more interesting exploration!
Previous post: http://babyhaore.blogspot.com/2008/09/very-very-close-to-walking.html#links
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Mummy was very naughty...... One night, after Hao Re went to bed, mummy was surfing the internet, and suddenly thought of having a peek on daddy's e-mail (oh yes, mama has all his password, muahahaha......!!!). The greatest finding of all was one of Hao Re grand-uncle sent daddy an e-mail, broadcasting the arrival of Kai-Jin Didi. This very blur daddy missed the e-mail, and didn't tell mummy about it. When mummy read that e-mail, Kai-Jin Did was already 4 months old, grrrr!!!
(Note: we have never met Kai-Jin's Didi parents nor his grandpa..... but we do keep contact with Hao Re's grand-uncle through e-mail and on Multiply......)
Fortunately, Kai-Jin Didi's mama keeps a blog for Kai-Jin Didi (http://www.kai-jin.blogspot.com/). Mummy diligently finished reading all posts at the same night. After reading the stories of baby Kai-Jin, mama let out a BIG sigh! How fortunate Kai-Jin is to be brought up and nurture by the nature! Kai-Jin is "the little prince to the 2 beach bumps" (that's what I read from the blog :-)) - meaning that Kai-Jin doesn't have to go to swimming pool because the sea is there for him to explore; he doesn't have to go for holiday because he is living in a wonderful holiday destination; he can do sun-bathing every day, has no limit to his "playground", he wakes up by the songs of the insects/birds, the air is so fresh, etc etc.......
While Hao Re is living in a small (though consider big to Singapore standard) HDB dwelling, what Hao Re has is the space within the 4 walls, wakes up to the sound of MRT and cars, swim in the chlorine-treated swimming pool, very rare chance to see an insect/bird/animal (have to go to the park/zoo), then have to go to botanical garden to see the plants........
Both baba and mama grew up in village, and we were enjoying most of those Kai-Jin Didi is enjoying (though no sea, but has river and mountain). But poor Hao Re, has to live in the city since born....... Daddy once suggested to send Hao Re back to kampung and let grandma to take care of him. But that will surely never happen, for 1) mama will not let this happen as mama can't bear not to see Hao Re for even 1 day; and 2) grandma is too old to take care of Hao Re. Hao Re has to live in the city and grow up together with Baba and Mama. Later when Jiu-Jiu leaves Singapore for good, Hao Re will be even more lonely, only has 2 playmates, Baba and Mama (luckily has some friends at the infant care centre).
Although we know the zoo and the botanical garden and all the parks are man-made, it's not really close to the nature, but then, that's the best on offer in this City of Lion, I guess. And we do our best to bring Hao Re to these close-to-nature-places as much as we can. And Mama and Baba promise not to send Hao Re to any of the enrichment classes (the very "in" thing in Singapore), so that Hao Re will get to enjoy his childhood more. Of course, Hao Re will grow up just fine, like other many thousands of the kids living in the concrete jungle, but, mama and baba just want to make sure Hao Re has a stress-less, happy growing up environment, to make sure Hao Re will be able to cultivate loving-care, appreciative and other positive attitutes as he grows.
Kai-Jin Didi, you are a lucky one!!! Can you lucky baby tell my baba to bring me to visit you one day, so that we can play together, then you can show me your version of swimming pool....... mama said you can see lots of fishes while you swim, and oh, that's so nice!
Mummy received the "ball" from baby Kai-Jin's mummy on the 22nd October 2008 to replying to a tag - http://kai-jin.blogspot.com/2008/10/was-it-love-at-first-sight-mama.html and the tag was originated by Kai-Jin's mummy's friend at http://ryeli.blogspot.com/2008/10/mummys-entry-was-it-love-at-first-sight.html. Got it?!?! This is is the first time Mama got tag, mummy finally replies to the tag.
Now, let's go back to the topic - Was it love at first sight?
Strangely enough, although I already knew the arriving of baby Hao Re since 9-10 months ago, and have done a lot of reading, and prepared what we should be preparing, when Hao Re finally arrived to the world, to be honest, I was still felt unprepared, mentally.
I recalled my feeling was pretty neutral and calm when I saw Hao Re for the very first time. I had a very smooth pregnancy and delivery, so after gone through the 10 months, the next thing would naturally be the arrival of baby Hao Re, as it should be, so not much of excitement. But then, of course, we were very happy (probably it's not the right word to describe my feeling, but I don't know what other word to use.....欣慰) to see Hao Re, as we know that our family is now perfected with the addition of baby Hao Re. Probably I think hubby was more excited than me, as he kept telling people Hao Re look more like him, and I guess the dad and son got bonded almost instantly.
Baby Hao Re on Day 1
The 3 days 2 nights at the hospital was pretty good experience (hubby said it's almost like a holiday, cos it's a break from work for him, and it's like staying in a hotel room, very relax for us). Funnily enough, my breastfeeding "adventure" was most successful, comparatively, in these 3 days. I total breastfed baby Hao Re during our hospital stay, he seemed to be okay with it, latched on and slept and latched on and slept, and I knew I produced colostrum and milk, as it came out when I squeezed my breast, and that happened even before I gave birth. The love for Hao Re was getting stronger and stronger everyday, until we were discharged and went home.
When Hao Re arrived home, there were A LOT of things to do, I mean it, A LOT. And that's the time we realised we were not well prepared (Hao Re was born at 37.5 weeks). Haven't even assembled the cot, haven't tried out the sterilizer, haven't bought a breast pump..... the list went on...... and worse of all, now there was no more help from the nurses, and we have to do everything ourselves! Though my mum was here to help, but as parents, we felt we were pretty lost. My strongest feeling in these days was - to be a mum is a lifelong commitment, and there is no u-turn and no pausing, and it's a very demanding job, especially for first time parents. Everyone knows this, BUT I was not well prepared for this, though I thought I was (seriously, reading and thinking is totally differnet from experiencing it!). When I got ready tired at nights, I selfishfully thought - isn't it we enjoyed our life better without baby? I was really selfish to even have this thought come through my mind.
Then all got even worser down a few days later, due to jaundice and dehydration, and the failure of breastfeeding as posted previoulsy http://babyhaore.blogspot.com/2008/10/breast-milk-vs-formula-milk.html#links. We gone through the few tough days when Hao Re was admitted for jaundice. It's really heart-breaking to see him suffer. He has to be on dip as young as 1 week old! The mother instinct of me, has finally, emerged! Only then, I started to fill full of love, I started to shower Hao Re with lots of love, I started and managed to adjust myself to become a mum, and I felt that I have to protect Hao Re with all I can!
Compare with the photo below, can you see how "yellow" he was?
Finally, recovered from jaundice, nice red little face :-)
Then there was a chapter for me and hubby as a couple. We are very close. We do everything together (except working :-)). Since he had to continue working during my maternity leave, I felt that there was something missing between me and hubby, as a couple. I became very sensitive, and became very demanding on him. Again, I selfishly thought, isn't it better for us, if I don't have to take care of Hao Re 24 hours a day, isn't it nice is we can catch a movie or go for a coffee, anytime anywhere we wanted to? Honestly, at that time, I once wished we could have our couple time back and continued to enjoy our life as a couple. How silly and selfish I was! Luckily mum was here to help, and we managed to take a breather out of the house, and that indeed helped a big deal! I finally got out of that and adjusted myself once again. And that was when Hao Re was already 1 month old.
Hao Re just shaved "botak" at 1 month.
What struck me most was that I am very fond of baby. I love baby and can't stop smiling whenever I see a baby and staring at baby for the longest time possible. And so when I have baby Hao Re, my own baby, I was totally shocked that why I didn't seem to feel that I love him a lot. I blamed myself to that, I really blamed myself, I thought I was not able to be a good mum.
Now, I understood. It takes time, everything takes time. And so does mum and son bonding. And so does my love for Hao Re. It took me about 1 month, going through a few rounds of hard time, up and down, and finally I know, yes, I am in deep love with baby Hao Re. But then again, I have to say, doesn't matter how much love I have for Hao Re, that doesn't "threaten" my love to my dear hubby. I love him all the same. Poeple always said women are very good in multi-tasking, so I guess even for love, I am able to "multi-love" and love these 2 men of life whole-heartedly!
So, was it love at first sight? No, it's not. But, it doesn't have to be, and it doesn't matter that it's not. What matter to me is - I love Hao Re now, and I love him forever!!!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
How time flies! I felt it's especially fast for the last month. Hao Re is 10 months old today, and probably I shouldn't call him a baby anymore, maybe a toddler is more appropriate :-) Sometimes I really miss the time when he was still a young baby, when I could cuddle him for a long time, and his beautiful eyes starring at me and smiling to me....., but then some other times, I really wish he grows up faster that he can walk and talk. Well, what Buddha teaches us - in order to have less worries, one should live in the present, and not to engage yourself in the past nor the future, just focus at the present moment, NOW!
And so this is Hao Re's "present life":
- weighs 10.3 kg
- Didn't measure his height (note it's his HEIGHT, and not length anymore since he can stand and cruise very well now)
- has 6 teeth (didn't grow any extra from previous month)
- have "graduated" from the puree. The Braun blender has been retired into the storage
- started to eat lumpy and finger food, including noodles/pasta. He can hold the food/noodle and feed himself. And manage to break the food into smaller pieces and swallow
- drink from sippy mug
- sip from the normal straw a few days ago. He does it very well, not much split out. He was trying our fruit juice :-)
- eat almost anything, except those that are supposedly not safe for baby
- snack a lot on adult food (theorectically not so good, but practically it didn't do any harm to Hao Re as given in small amount, main aim is for him to join in our meal, and we can't cook these few weeks as doing renovation on kitchen)
- typically drink 3-4x of 210-240ml, plus 3-4 solid food, plus 1 fruit everyday day. I know this is a lot for a 10 months baby, but he is still not too "fat" yet, think because he is very active, thus burn a lot of calories :-) So don't mind he keeps more "reserver", in case he gets even more active later
- finally, sleeping through the night! Can sleep for a stretch of 8 to 10 hours at night. If he sleeps early at night (8-9pm), will wake up at about 4 or 5 am for milk, then continue to sleep again. If he sleeps late (10-11pm), no need for milk until he fully wakes up in the morning
- sleeps less during the day (1 - 3 hours) and at night (8 - 9 hours), making a total of (9 - 12 hours), still okay, I think
- wanted to train him to sleep on his own (the cry-it-out method), but couldn't bare his crying even for a few minutes (as he seldom cries), so gave up. Now sing to him and pat him to sleep every night. The big improvement was at least no need to carry him to sleep, big relieve for my wrist and back!
- sleeps in his own cot. Sometime co-sleeps with us for a an hour or so in the middle of the night for the comfort when he wakes up crying like having a nightmare or something, then I put him back to his cot
- still, very playful, very active baby
- probably spend 70-80% of his time standing and cruising, and the rest of the time crawling, very rare now to see him sitting down
- still doesn't have the gut to let go of hand and walk, though he already stands unassisted and cruises very stably
- walked up to 3-4 steps unassisted for a few times (see photo below), but not keen to do this very often, still
- sometime prefer to play on his own, he knows where to get his toys and decides what he wants to play with
- can play with anything, not necessary his toys
- laughs a lot when play. Teachers and grandparents said he likes the very rough ways of playing (I don't mind this, as this makes him a MAN!)
- yeap, manage to make "baba" and "mama" sounds. But not to call us, but to express his feeling
- in general, when unhappy or needs comfort - mama; when playing or getting excited - baba
- sometime trying to mimick the sounds we made
- likes to shout/scream recently when getting excited, at home or in public, but this still doesn't bother us, yet
- knows how to wave bye-bye, but depending on his mood whether he wants to do it or not
- can recognise baba, mama, jiu-jiu, grandpa, grandma from the crowd, and makes loud sound and moves his hand excitingly to signal that he sees us
- laughs a lot, a very happy baby
- recently have a lot of face expression, a lot of different smile patterns, and a lot of laughing sounds.... my boy is certainly growing up well and fast!
- still drolls.... think another 2 teeth coming out (read that before 18 months, 8 teeth will cut, then the rest will cut from 18 - 36 months, don't know if this is true?)
- likes to bite people when we carry him, and it hurts! Naughty baby!
- new "action" - crawl on to the chair all by his own! This makes us watching his every moment, in case he falls! And likes to stand up from sitting in the high chair, really dangerous!
- new "habit" #1 - reading! Realised that he really likes to read books, make him happy. The only time that can make him calm down and sit still for a good 10 minutes or so is when we read a book to him
- new "habit" #2 - watching television. He really watches the tv so focusly, especially like to watch the animals and adverstisement (things that moves)! And he laughs if we makes some "sound effect" to add to it.
- new "game" - playing hide-and-seek under the dinning table. He goes to hide himself behind the leg of the dinning table, then make sounds for us to go and look for him, then laughs out loud when we (pretend to) found him, very clever boy!
- new "playmates" - Popo and Gonggong (mama's parents). Now he understands grandparents are part of the family and so willing to play, to be carried and to be fed by grandma
- new "observation" - everytime goes in to the lift, will look at the display, not sure he is reading the changing number (we tell him the number for each floor) or the moving up or down arrow?
- new "rejection" - knows how to shake his head if he doens't want anything given to him. And knows how to "protest" (making sound and waving hand) if it's something that is not to his liking
- still likes to play with water - taking bath or in the swimming pool
- to walk unassistantly - he just needs to get more confident.......
- how to get down from the bed and sofa - so we don't have to worry of him falling......
Baby Hao Re, well done and keep it up!
Enjoying reading with Jiu Jiu